Okey Bye...

Yesterday I took up the chance to discuss about issue if we are still able to meet up.

The respond more then what I was expecting to have.

I know that we wouldn’t come into a point on agreeing into this. Meaning no closure on this topic like before. We forever don’t have any closure on this.

What upset me more is the word that my friend choose to say and reply me like this is first time we meet up.

Well this is the last moment of our friendship.

-         -  Some much for a 2 years friendship

-         -  You show me what shit I am to you. I bid you didn’t even take me as a friend, more of a teddy bear in your life.

Again I should have listen to your message when we fight in DEC. If I accepted that thing wouldn’t happen today. Anyway I will save all the transcript to remind myself

I really so disappointed that this is what I get after we been friends for so long……

Sorry Day

Remember few days ago I was busy preparing how to say sorry to my friend? 

Well today has come and 

- Sorry was accepted 
- Like what I sense, really attached liao. No more single liao. 


Sometimes I don't understands why My fucking feeling is so accurate? 

I had another sense coming up after today meet up. 

- We are going to end this friendship again 
- I had a deep sense of feeling telling me we are having another major problem and this time round thing wouldn't work out anymore. 

I really had to say byebye forever. 


- The picture wasn't clear on what happen.


- But It clearly told me that we were fight for this last time and then everything ends from here onward.  

The only chance to say sorry!

Over the last couple of days I had been busy trying to figure how I could delivery my sorry message to my friend. 

I had so many ideas but

- Limited Time 
- Don't over do it 
- Had to show that I really mean to say sorry and not for the sake of saying. 


So what I done here is got a close friend office and we started drawing a picture from letter pad into Photoshop. 

I hope the effort and sorry gift would be helpful. 

Honestly I wasn't pinning much hope that it would be accepted. I hope this would also give myself an answer. 

Although we had disagreement from time to time, but a good friendship don't come easy. I hope that such experience would make us stronger.

But is this what is going to happen? Making friendship stronger like what I think? Anyway I already has a strong feeling she is already attached. Nvm i will know the answer on this Sunday!   

Trying to say sorry.

Giving up a friendship wasn't hard if this isn't a close friend of yours

I had tried to called my friend and say sorry. But I can't sense it the party on the opposite side is not really accepting it. Maybe is had only been 2 days and everything is still boiling and I should have given the other party more time to cool down. But I had a feeling this time around my friend would be attached and thing would never be the same again.

My 6th sense telling me this would happen because the person I known suddenly has been completely changed. I can't detail what has changed is just a feeling thing aren't the same like before.. 

The way she does thing and etc. Called me over sensitive if you would like. But I really had this super strong feeling that thing has change and would never be the same. 

I tried to caller this morning and Speak to my friend for an hours to seek forgiveness but i think is a 30% will accept. 

What the fuck Am I doing this? Say unfriend and then seek forgiveness.

- I felt like I am wrong but yet I was upset on how I was been treated? Should I just say Sorry face to face? 

- I don't think I would get to meet up the person face to face say sorry also.  

Had a fight with a best friend

I had not been spending time on this blog for a long time. 

What happen today had made me to search for a space to express my mind. I had a fight with my close friend which I known for 2 years. 

You know to me this seems like something got to happen and ending the friendship is something which can't be helped. 

All a along I known that this day will come and this moment just happen right in front of me. I dream about this a few days ago in my sleep. 

Yah sound like deja vu but it really happen like what I dream about it. We have disagreement and I felt like I suddenly don't know my friend and we all grow up and changed. 

I really don't know where I should start typing maybe I can say it like a 2 year clinical trial has ended and the result wasn't what you expected. 

You hope the trial would be successful by the end result was opposite from what you expected. But end of the day you failure and had to LAN LAN accept another person clinical trial result. Because you know failure is 90% and I still insisted to go ahead with this trial. 

Many people around me had told me that this friendship will not work out because different genders has always been Asian issue. Only in the western region a inter genders friendship will workout like those you saw on the movie. 

So where is the problem between us? 

1. We had different expectation towards this friendship. 
2. Inter genders friendship don't really happen in this region of earth. 
3. Maybe I wasn't suitable as a best friend. 
4. People change from time to time. 

Anyway at this point of blogger we are not longer friends. I was really disappointed that thing turn out to be like that for 2 years of friendship. If time were to bring me back, I wouldn't wanna do this. 

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