Trying to say sorry.

Giving up a friendship wasn't hard if this isn't a close friend of yours

I had tried to called my friend and say sorry. But I can't sense it the party on the opposite side is not really accepting it. Maybe is had only been 2 days and everything is still boiling and I should have given the other party more time to cool down. But I had a feeling this time around my friend would be attached and thing would never be the same again.

My 6th sense telling me this would happen because the person I known suddenly has been completely changed. I can't detail what has changed is just a feeling thing aren't the same like before.. 

The way she does thing and etc. Called me over sensitive if you would like. But I really had this super strong feeling that thing has change and would never be the same. 

I tried to caller this morning and Speak to my friend for an hours to seek forgiveness but i think is a 30% will accept. 

What the fuck Am I doing this? Say unfriend and then seek forgiveness.

- I felt like I am wrong but yet I was upset on how I was been treated? Should I just say Sorry face to face? 

- I don't think I would get to meet up the person face to face say sorry also.  

Had a fight with a best friend

I had not been spending time on this blog for a long time. 

What happen today had made me to search for a space to express my mind. I had a fight with my close friend which I known for 2 years. 

You know to me this seems like something got to happen and ending the friendship is something which can't be helped. 

All a along I known that this day will come and this moment just happen right in front of me. I dream about this a few days ago in my sleep. 

Yah sound like deja vu but it really happen like what I dream about it. We have disagreement and I felt like I suddenly don't know my friend and we all grow up and changed. 

I really don't know where I should start typing maybe I can say it like a 2 year clinical trial has ended and the result wasn't what you expected. 

You hope the trial would be successful by the end result was opposite from what you expected. But end of the day you failure and had to LAN LAN accept another person clinical trial result. Because you know failure is 90% and I still insisted to go ahead with this trial. 

Many people around me had told me that this friendship will not work out because different genders has always been Asian issue. Only in the western region a inter genders friendship will workout like those you saw on the movie. 

So where is the problem between us? 

1. We had different expectation towards this friendship. 
2. Inter genders friendship don't really happen in this region of earth. 
3. Maybe I wasn't suitable as a best friend. 
4. People change from time to time. 

Anyway at this point of blogger we are not longer friends. I was really disappointed that thing turn out to be like that for 2 years of friendship. If time were to bring me back, I wouldn't wanna do this.